Does fairytale exist? The Princess always get to marry her Prince Charming and live happily ever after in fairytales. What about real life?

Yesterday I attended my cousin’s wedding where I am the bridesmaid. At that moment, I thought marriage is the happiest thing a girl who go through – to be with her love of her life. The couple will spend the rest of their lives together, loving each other.

Today I witness a marriage which went wrong. What is the point if you get married but not trusting each other later? I thought you vowed to accept each other regardless whatever that happened? Why kept digging back old stories on how he betrayed you if things had past? Why let money be the barrier and blinded you? Sometimes I think love is fragile, it is not long lasting as what people claimed it is.

Yesterday’s wedding made me having the urge to find my love and get married. But today’s incident – I’ve lost faith in love and marriage. Oh God, get me out of this emo state.

Folks, I’m on my 2nd day of study leave for preparation for the CFA exams. And what am I doing right now? Blogging.

I’m seriously enjoying every moment of this getting-paid-but-not-working life. For instance, I spent my entire yesterday revamping my facebook restaurant city (this game is freaking addictive), updating my ‘about me’ page (yea, go check it out, 1 hours spent on that), went out for lunch with mum and dad, basically everything besides studying.

For these 2 days, my life would be wakeup at 9, breakfast, logon facebook and all other sites at 10, finishing those unfinished part in my blog, lunch at 1-ish, facebook again, nap at 4-5, bath, facebook again, dinner, go pasar malam, watch tv, facebook again before sleep.

Hmm.. not to worry geh.. I have budgeted 2 days of unproductive days (aka wastage) from my study leave. Guess I’ve expected all these from my history.

I know I suppose to be studying because my boss would whack me knowing I’m doing nothing at home here. Don’t get me wrong, I did setup my study table with my study materials after all.

That’s my study table picture taken with phone camera and bluetoothed to the pc. Don’t have to move my lazy bump even to the smallest fraction. Geez, I love technologies

Back to the picture, I’ve setup the table in my room (not the normal study table in the study room) because it’s more conducive here. I’ll tell you why. The above is the exact view from where I’m sitting – the edge of the bed. Yes, no chairs. So when I’m tired (which happens all the time) I could just lift my legs and rest on the bed

Then I have my laptop right in front of my books to keep me entertain updated of my restaurant status (and feed the hungry employees) or perhaps checking my mails (and facebook) from time to time. If you see closely, there’s another laptop behind mine, that’s my sis who is doing the same

How could I study like this? The notes are super boring, the moment I look at it, I started to feel like sleeping. If not every minute my attention will be drawn to the 11 inches screen in front of me or I’ll simply become hungry or sleepy. Heck, don’t tell me to switch off the laptop, I can’t live without it (remember?)

HELPPP!!!

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